The reason for being here.
Searching for the purpose of existence, as in Hector in pursuit of happiness.
The why. Why am I here?
What is my purpose?
Surely, there has to be more to life than working from 9 – 5, day in and day out.
Only living for the weekend. But even the weekends are for shopping, housework, and, if you're lucky, going out for a few hours. As a parent, you have even less time for yourself, extracurricular activities for the kids, from football practice to ballet lessons.
And that is it? Is that the purpose of life?
Cultivating awareness and starting to practice self-love, self-compassion, and self-worth.
But. The guilt of “me” time. To be able just to be. Or write and read, anything that sings to the heart will do.
Finding my purpose, my reason for being here.
You may resonate with this all.
The biggest question of all times? What is my purpose in this life?
I have read many self-help books in search of my purpose. Learning many healing modalities. Daily meditation practice and still no dice.
My purpose must be something life-altering, something big and amazing.
Where is it hiding?
What does it look like, feel like?
Come on already – show yourself!!
That's what you're searching for; you already are.
- What if the purpose of life was in plain view?
The purpose of life is in the remembering of who I am, of who you are.
The purpose of life is to be authentic, honest, kind, compassionate, forgiving, and in service to the Soul – and thereby to Grace.
That unconditional love is our true nature.
Conditioned out of us from an early age. That is the Karma, dogma passed down through the ancestral line – epigenetics.
That all one needs to find purpose and meaning in life is to help each other. The teachings of Christ, Buddha, and many others all pointed to this.
We must remember that living on Earth is a school for our Soul to grow and evolve, for Grace to experience all that there is. The inner call, the endless need to find the answer to the question 'Why Am I Here?' and the pursuit of purpose in life, is all about connecting to my soul and living a life that is in alignment.
But how does that work in this 3D reality?
Where bills need to be paid, food needs to be bought, and children need to be raised?
Living my full-time purpose, how do you do that?
Because we have such diverse life experiences, a single answer will not suit everyone.
Our uniqueness sets us apart, and yet underneath, we are all the same.
The one who converts power over others is often driven by fear; the need to control stems from fear, and sticking to the familiar path, whether conscious or subconscious, keeps things as they are.
Growing out of that mindset and doing the inner work, the shadow work, inner child healing and ancestral lineage healing releases the false belief ingrained over generations. The liberation that followed can be mind-blowing.
Personal development and spiritual growth does that. It will change you from the inside out.
Transforming your life. It most certainly changed mine.
I was everything to everyone, and in the process, I lost who I am.
The midlife crises – empty nest syndrome, health crises, and emotional shock. All that was leading to wake up and start searching for the reason why I am here, and that can't be it! This grind of 9-5.
Have I found my purpose? Indeed, I have. However, my journey is different to yours. I can tell you yet that would be wrong of me to do so.
I can tell you how I did it, pointing the way,
The first step is to be aware of the thoughts running our life.
To question whether the thought or belief is true.
Often, what we think is right is an opinion passed down from our parents.
Question everything.
- Is this true?
- And how do I know that it is?
Learning to observe the mind's endless chatter and learning to pay attention when something is shifting. When energy starts to move.
For example, when you watch a movie and it has a sad moment, you feel miserable and tears come. This is energy. Every thought has an energy attached to it. With practice, you learn to sense when it rises and you allow it to be. Nothing to do, no label, no need to know the why. Just let it be. That is awareness of energy moving through the body.
Sitting in stillness enables us to observe our mind,
our body and the energy surrounding us.
This practice becomes so ingrained that we can do this at all times. The moment I feel a change in energy, I take note. I observe.
When I notice that I'm getting embroiled in the outside world, I stop and focus on my breath, bringing the energy back to myself.
This is being present, being in the here and now.
That is the purpose of life: to be present, open and living from an open heart.
Well, that is my opinion. Yours could be very different. And that is okay. There is no right or wrong on the journey to your true nature – it just is.
I hope that my letter has provided you with what you needed, and that you enjoyed reading it.
Much love to you all
Anja xx