Musings of an aspiring writer
By Anja Kopp-Roberts
Part Sixteen Pushing through it
Today is a weird day. I don’t feel like wanting to write or paint. It's a duvet day! Alas, my cat, Arwen, demanded that her needs be met.
Maybe it is the weather. It is rather blustery and drizzly, whereas yesterday was warm and pleasant. The impermanence of the weather and life itself.
The jo-jo effect from being super creative and writing nonstop to coming to a grinding halt and doing nothing, or rather the feeling of not feeling it today.
It could be the Reiki training day, teaching, practising, attuning someone to Reiki and working with crystal energy simultaneously.
Or that I am shifting again. Meaning that I am letting go of more baggage. Inner work never stops. Always, stuff comes up. Once I pass through the shift and I am on the other side, everything will be peachy and worth it.
Why do I keep putting myself through this after years and years of travelling through my inner realm? I believe it comes from being an old soul. In this lifetime, I am learning and embodying the three jewels. I move between the three but stay more and more in the second and third frequencies of the mentioned jewels.
It is living in the present with detachment and no desires. This does not mean being passive and never feeling any emotions—no. But it means that my feelings and ego mind do not rule me. Living from a place of unconditional love and acceptance, being present, is another way to describe this.
I just noticed that I am writing, pushing through the feeling of not being in the mood. Maybe that is the key. When the feeling of can’t be bothered rises to see it, to accept it and do it anyway.
It does not matter whether this is a masterpiece or not. What matters is pushing through it. In the end, it is all in the mind.
“ALL SUFFERING COMES FROM THE MIND” Buddha
I noticed something else. We all know that music and emotions are linked, influencing how we feel. And how this influenced me today. The theme music of “The Pirates of the Caribbean” is playing now. It does make me smile. Perhaps I need to play “We Are the Champions” the next time I feel like staying in bed.
How do I feel now? Much better, thank you very much.
Another thing to be aware of is that we have soul contracts and carry epigenetics, which is part of our DNA. Sometimes, these contracts show up and influence our mood and, to a degree, how we conduct ourselves.
Soul contracts, Karma, and Epigenetics are part of who we are. Once we awaken to our authentic selves, these things are no longer as powerful. When we are connected to our true essence, soul, and light, we have all that we need: all wisdom and all power. That is the moment of true freedom—the freedom of no longer having a limiting mindset. Living from that perception is very different from living from the 3D reality.
Living in a 3D world with a 5D consciousness is challenging—the perfect ground to embody the teaching of Love.
Have I mastered this? Not all the time, but more and more so.
We change the world every time we operate from a place of love. From moment to moment, from day to day, the change to a better future is gaining momentum.
You see it everywhere. Just look where society was 30, 50 or 100 years ago. Change on this scale takes time. Change is good and can’t be stopped.
It is the impermanence of life.
Thank you for reading, and I hope you enjoyed this essay.
Much love
Anja xx